Every now and then we see each other but there are no reactions. When we do it's like we both are strangers to one another. No words, no Hellos, no stares, no eye contact, no nothing. It kills me! It kills me to death. It's like an awkward moment. The feeling that you want to talk but you can't because your mouth won't open because it's glued with superglue.
I hate the feeling when were on the same room, he's so close and I can't even say hi. It's torture. It's plain agony! I don't know what to do for our friendship to come back.
Well, maybe because I'm afraid. Afraid of his reaction. Afraid of the thoughts in his head.
What if he hates me? What if, he doesn't want to talk to me anymore? What if he has moved on and tries to forget all of our past and everything that our friendship had?
Those "What ifs" scare me. They kill me every time I think of them. See, I miss him. I miss him more than anything in my life. It may sound exaggerated but that's how I feel.
However, I know that if we may talk again, be close to each other again, everything will never be the same just like before.
-Damsel, Jaenni :'>
